My mother and I have a weird relation to each other. It's hard to describe, but you can say it's distraught. Our relationship is not how it should be. We don't appreciate and we don't love each other, or at least that's what I think of her. My heart gets cold, but also warm when I think of her. I've always wondered why did it have to end up like this. Is it my fault? Am I too stubborn? I have to admit that I could have avoided some arguments and fights we had, if I just hold it back. But sometimes she's been unreasonably for treating me the way she does. This one is dedicated to my dear beloved mother, who I can't stand, who I can't live with, whose appreciation I'm seeking ...
I don't know what your conflicts are about, but I think that you can't live without her and one day you will learn it. ( you could live in another city, in another house, but you will miss her somehow, you know what I mean? ) Perhaps not now, but I am sure you will learn it someday. Believe me... I'm really sure your mother loves you. I am also sure you love her, too. Don't give up :-*
AntwortenLöschenMy dear,
AntwortenLöschenI really appreciate your concerning for me but atm I can't change my attitude towards her. I wish it could be different but it seems like that won't happen if we keep on living under the same roof. We both are strong woman and we need our free room but right now that is not given. I do love her but it's a kind of hate-love. I can't forget what she have done to me.
But I am really happy to know that my case is just an exception and I love how you write about your relation to your mom and I wish I could think the same way ...
:( I looove you.
AntwortenLöschenYou can talk with me whenever you want, darling :)
thanks honey :)
AntwortenLöschenI don't think I'll have the time to you atm but I sure will after the exams if I need it & I really appreciate that :D
so 감사합니다 ♥