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I'm sitting here, listening to that one sad song over and over again. So much to do, but I can't help myself. What's wrong with me?
The sad mood of the song applies to my mood. I feel sad and desperate. Why can't I stop listening to that song? I feel good and lost at the same time. It feels good, being down. Why does that make me so happy? I feel like I'm about to cry. To cry everything that's on my heart bothering me, out.
But I can't. Tired. Exhausted. I'll let this mood last for a while, then stop listening to that song and go back to normal.

Audrey 

Nikon D3000

My daddy bought a Nikon D3000 few months ago. Just some random pictures I took :)
I'm thinking about getting my own DSLR but they're so damn expensive T_T

Amercian Diner

Just me spending all my money on food :)

and MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL!!!

much love xxoo

Audrey

Lee Hi feat. Epik High - It's cold

Satisfaction

I caught myself, thinking of you again. I know I'm not supposed to waste my time and energy by thinking of you and me and what we used to be, but I can't help it.
The thought of you makes me feel dizzy and helpless. I've fallen for you and I'm over you at the same time.
With you I experienced, how it is to love someone, but at the same time you never gave me the feeling of being loved.
Even though you never gave me anything back, while I gave you my everything, I feel satisfied.
I'm glad, that I met you. And this thing between us helped me to grow up to a more mature woman. Independent, grown-up and strong. At least that's what I wish to happen.


xxoo
Audrey

torn

What's wrong with me lately? What is my heart trying to tell me? Do I like him or not. I don't know what I'm supposed to do, think or feel at all. I never felt this lost before. Lost in my own feelings.
Why can't I decide whether it is just friendship that connects us or even more than friendship? It's so hard to tell and I'm more than confused. 
There's no one to help me out in this situation. I have to find it out by myself, but just how? Not sure how I will handle this problem or if I will try to solve it. Will I make the right decision? I'm torn. What to do now?




xxoo 
Audrey

Questions over questions

What's wrong with us lately? Why can't we talk to each other like we used to? What happened to us, to cause us to change like that? I don't feel loved anymore. It seems like you don't care about me anymore.
How am I supposed to let you know, that I feel like I'm the only one suffering in this relationship? Shall we break up? Is that the end? I still love you. I still care for you. My feelings for you ddidn't change at all. There has to be a solution. I don't want this to end... Not like that.

xxoo Audrey

2PM - Tik Tok

Just go

If you want to leave me, I won't hold you back. If you want to search new hapiness, just go and leave me alone. Forget about us and what we felt for each other. Never ever think of me again, just go. 
Find a new person to love. Someone to hold you tight, someone to comfort you, when you're sad, someone to stay with you at night. Just go...

I think I'll be okay ... at least I'm trying ... Just go