Satisfaction

I caught myself, thinking of you again. I know I'm not supposed to waste my time and energy by thinking of you and me and what we used to be, but I can't help it.
The thought of you makes me feel dizzy and helpless. I've fallen for you and I'm over you at the same time.
With you I experienced, how it is to love someone, but at the same time you never gave me the feeling of being loved.
Even though you never gave me anything back, while I gave you my everything, I feel satisfied.
I'm glad, that I met you. And this thing between us helped me to grow up to a more mature woman. Independent, grown-up and strong. At least that's what I wish to happen.


xxoo
Audrey

torn

What's wrong with me lately? What is my heart trying to tell me? Do I like him or not. I don't know what I'm supposed to do, think or feel at all. I never felt this lost before. Lost in my own feelings.
Why can't I decide whether it is just friendship that connects us or even more than friendship? It's so hard to tell and I'm more than confused. 
There's no one to help me out in this situation. I have to find it out by myself, but just how? Not sure how I will handle this problem or if I will try to solve it. Will I make the right decision? I'm torn. What to do now?




xxoo 
Audrey

Questions over questions

What's wrong with us lately? Why can't we talk to each other like we used to? What happened to us, to cause us to change like that? I don't feel loved anymore. It seems like you don't care about me anymore.
How am I supposed to let you know, that I feel like I'm the only one suffering in this relationship? Shall we break up? Is that the end? I still love you. I still care for you. My feelings for you ddidn't change at all. There has to be a solution. I don't want this to end... Not like that.

xxoo Audrey

2PM - Tik Tok

Just go

If you want to leave me, I won't hold you back. If you want to search new hapiness, just go and leave me alone. Forget about us and what we felt for each other. Never ever think of me again, just go. 
Find a new person to love. Someone to hold you tight, someone to comfort you, when you're sad, someone to stay with you at night. Just go...

I think I'll be okay ... at least I'm trying ... Just go

죄 승 현 사 랑 해 ♥

I'm in love. In love with Choi Seung Hyun (죄 승 현), better known as T.O.P. from BIG BANG. He put a spell on me with his deep and sexy voice. His killer smile is only dedicated to me so take off your dirty hands bitches. He's mine! MUHAHAHAHA
사 랑 해 오 빠 ♥

I'M 18 NOW BITCH!

Thanks to all my cuties, who just made my day :)

Finally can drive a car on my own, buy alcohol and go clubbing :D

Waited sooo long for this day to come and here it is c:

I ♥ you guys!

much love xxoo

Audrey ♥

Jay Fluent - Young kids having sex

SO RIGHT!

love you Jay, xoxo

Audrey

saranghae Elif Kim

I LOVE YOU ELIF KIM!

oxox

Audrey

Elif's Blog ♥

Brown Eyes - 벌써일년

I wanna be with you

It's late. I can't sleep. I feel so desperate.  You're gone now and there's nothing to change. Only your tears are remaining. I can feel your hate for me. 

You're hurt and I know it was my fault. I never wanted to realise that it's over but everything went wrong. I admit my mistakes. Take my heart and crush it in your palms. I just want to hold you in my arms. I just want to be with you.

xxoo 

Audrey

Like My Bass - Tha Outfit

Love is pain

I thought I was strong. In the end I realized I was wrong. It hurt when you left me. You took everything from me. Crushed my heart in your palms like it meant nothing to you. The feelings we shared, you erased them within a minute. I can't forget you. Everything I do, reminds me of you.
You weakened me. I'm not that strong girl anymore. I can't take this pain. I don't know what to do without you?
Can someone please release this pain, so I can breathe again?

xxoo

Audrey

Over and over again

Everybody is a little bit superficial, they have their own taste when it comes to the looks but should care more about the character. It just came to me differently than expected. I fell in love with a person who does not meet my standards. Maybe it was not real love but I felt good when I talked to her. 

All I needed was to be near him. 

I didn't had the courage to do the first step. He moved away. I've never seen him again. 

Of course after a while you'll be okay and even though it seemed to be impossible another person just stepped into my life. But once you get in touch with that person in any way again you'll start to think about her again. 

What would have happened if we were together now? What could you've done differently? 

Since we don't have any contact, we play this game over and over again. 

To have fun is important but what I really need is a person, who will be there for me in times I need a shoulder to lean on. Someone to hold on...

It seems like that destiny doesn't want me to together with such a person. 

I wonder why ... I know I'm not that goodlooking but I always thought that one could love my personality but apparently just as obnoxious as the rest ...

xxoo 

Audrey